I am finding this third year hard. Harder than last year when I had a very young Beanie and probably some sleep deprivation to distract me.
It's 9pm here - most certainly V was already dead at this time three years ago, and I just hadn't even realised it. I don't know if he died in the morning or the afternoon. I wasn't paying enough attention.
Losing V is the biggest failure of my life. I have never gotten past that fact.
I told my manager, who was not my manager when V was born, that tomorrow was his birthday. I shed a few tears as I said he would have been three.
"The wound is still raw, isn't it?" he said.
Yes. Not always, but today it really is.
6 years ago
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I am sorry this year is hitting you harder, and sorrier still that your precious V is not here. Thinking of you...
So sorry, Rosepetal. So very sorry.
So sorry dearie, sorry that V is not here.
It's the same with me, I don't know when Serenity died, and I feel like I should have paid better attention.
(((hugs)))
P.S. The word verification for me to post this is "bless". Hmmmm....
Sending a million hugs your way, my friend.
They say time heals all wounds. But they lie.
(((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))
I wish I had the right words to say to take away some of the pain-and a way to be there to be a shoulder. I'm just so sorry.
((hugs)) Rosepetal. I am sorry it feels harder this year..
But please, you did NOT fail. You did NOT, did NOT, did NOT.
Remembering with you, sending love...
Thinking of you and V.
I have been thinking of you and V over these days but have not been online very much. Sending you much love.
Huge hugs to you.
xxx
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